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15 June 2005 @ 07:02 pm
she could escape there, just for a while  
song: little 15
artist: depeche mode
album: violator

i was weened on new wave. my dad thought it was really funny to keep me up all night. just because of that talking heads song "keeping baby up all night." my mom would try to put me to bed, but then she would pass out and i would wander downstairs where my dad would be hanging out with his band and i would just hang out until the wee hours listening to music. not much has changed, in that respect.

i remember the day my best friend in sixth grade came over to my house with depeche mode's "violator" album. depeche mode was my uncle's favorite band, so i'd heard them before. but i pretended as if she was the one who "found" them. anyway, we just laid on the floor in my room and listened to the whole thing. i don't think we said much of anything the whole time. that album totally kicked my ass. it still does.

then, someone gave me "music for the masses" for my 15th birthday. and holy crap. that album was even better than "violator." needless to say, from then on i was totally obssessed. the song "little 15" was kind of my anthem that year. i'm sure at the time i had no idea what dave gahan was even talking about, but i was pretty sure he was talking to/about me. i was 15!! hello! anyway, to this day, that song, that album makes me think of myself when i was figuring out how to be happy. i didn't have a very happy childhood, but i pulled it together in high school. and much of that had to do with the music i was listening to at the time. even though - technically speaking - bands like depeche mode, the cure and the smiths were "depressing" they made me happy. they were my little secret. no one but me and my 2 friends knew about them. they made me feel cool and somehow better about myself.

i think on some level music is still like that for me. it makes me feel like i fit in, even when i like the kind of music most other people don't. and "little 15" is kind of emblematic of that feeling for me - that feeling that music is there for you, even when you feel totally out of place.
Current Mood: drunkdrunk
Current Music: depeche mode : little 15
-: bdthe_outsider on June 16th, 2005 07:18 am (UTC)
"Little 15" is on "Music for the Masses," not "Violator." Just thought I'd mention that so it'll be easier to find in case anyone hasn't heard it and wants to check it out.
Polly Prissy Pantslilabailey on June 16th, 2005 08:28 pm (UTC)
doh. i make that clear in the text - but you're right!! i messed up the heading. thanks.
Genius Monster Sparkle Pants AKA Missygolfshirt6 on June 16th, 2005 11:43 am (UTC)

Depeche Mode is okay.
But they real question is do you like cool stuff - Like Ska?